Thursday, March 29, 2012


The book has been selling, mostly to people who know me and learn about the book.  So far all the feedback is good.  So, why the sigh?  Well, the book needs to be helped along the way.  It needs my attention and leg work, 2 things that I have not recouped yet.  Not to the point of actually marketing my work.  Right now I am on print on demand because it is the easiest thing for me to do.  It does not make the best shipping times and it means that I am not available in physical bookstores, just their online stores.

I will come out of hibernation soon.  I know that...
Everything in its own time.

Sunday, January 22, 2012


The books are arriving to their perspective homes.  I guess a normal person would be nervous.  I mean this is the part where you are basically just awaiting judgement, right?

It is an amazing relief for me.  I am not nervous.  The book has typos in it.  I believed I posted about those before.  I know some comments will come for those.  The book is a lot darker than I am known for.  I mentioned that in an April post, which was the reason for the pen name.  I am not at all hiding who I am.  The back cover has my name and photo.  I just don't want the darkness of this book to be used to judge my future works.

I am sure there will be those who love the book and others who won't.  The book was written for my husband.  Only his potential dislike of the work would have caused me to bite my nails and wonder.  Sigh, how I dislike being a widow.
I am curious to know what some think.  I wonder how far his book will go.  It is exciting because it is a proclamation that he was here.  It is like he is now marked in history.  I imagine at least one book floating around for the rest of days with his photo in the back.  The book itself is a part of our tragic love story.  A tale that ended too soon.  I enjoyed that side of it so much that I decided to form a non-profit in his name.  It will contribute to the causes that he cared for.

His legacy will live beyond us both.

Friday, October 7, 2011

It's here!

The book proof came yesterday.  Another bipolar experience for me.  Grief vs. content.  Bitter vs. Sweat.

No wonder they make pills for this...

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Cover is Done!

The final approval for the cover art work has finally been sent.  I would normally be super excited except that my sweet husband is not here to enjoy this with me and he will not be able to read the first copy.  I had this all planned out.  I was going to write in it and sign it.  Then I was going to wrap it for him and he was going to be the first person to read the finished, published work.

The entire thing is now sad to me.  I am satisfied that the book is finally moving along, but so devastated at the timing and the circumstances.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011


There are no words to describe how I am feeling as of late.  I wrote this book for my husband.  The book was delayed.  I don't know why it happened.  Now my precious prince will never get to see the book!  My husband passed away unexpectedly and here, 2 weeks later, I finally received the cover concept.  

The genre is not something that I had planned on getting into.  I knew that he would enjoy the read since he loved psycho-thrillers.  It is just such a weird feeling about the book and the way that this is happening.  

Thursday, May 19, 2011


The release of the book is really just around the bend but the wait is killing me.
It is hard to contain the jittery excitement over it.  Just a few more months.

Only women can relate to how I really feel.  Particularly women who have taken a pregnancy test.
You know the 3 minute wait.  The 3 minutes staring into the plastic stick debating on whether or not you
see a blue spot that can be the start of a positive line or maybe its just the light.  Maybe if you blink, it will go away or appear depending on which you are rooting for.  Did I do it right, does it need more or less?  Maybe I should take another.

In those 3 minutes, you notice the tile is chipped, the paint in here can be touched up, and what's with
the shower rod, is it slanted???  1.5 minutes left to go...

Imagine that feeling, but for 3 months.  This is the longest pregnancy test of my LIFE!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011


There are basically 3 main characters.  First we have...

JANE-  Jane is the old woman we never notice walking through our daily lives.

She is the boring, drab, lonely woman who looks down in the stores and does not say much.  

Living in Florida, which is a huge retirement community market, I wonder who these walmart 

greeters and bridge people were when they were young.  What stories did they hide behind 

their strange clothes and wrinkled skin.  I notice that a lot of the younger generation just pass 

them by and really believe that they were always frail with no stories to tell.  Jane is one of 

these people who finally gets to tell her story.  When she finally tells it, she gets a tiny bit

of her own life back.  You can see the weight lifted.  Unfortunately, her audience, while

eager to hear her story, are very shaken and disrupted by it.

LEGACY REIMS is the lucky woman who is chosen by fate to run into Jane at the moment

when all of her skeletons come falling out of her closet.  Legacy is a young aspiring writer, 

wife, and mother.  She is given the task of the century after being the only person in years

to actually show some courtesy and caring to the old woman in the store.  Legacy's 

character is loosely based on me and my reactions to the situation she is in.  She is very 

similar to me, but she is not me!  I wanted her to feel real, like you know her.

Finally, there is TOM LAUGHLIN.  After what I have created in Tom, I really hope that this is

no one's real name.  If, it is someone's name, don't look at him funny.  My Tom is a fictitious

character.  In creating Tom, I remember feeling that I had to write him even though I didn't 

understand him.  In the story, Tom is really trying to figure himself out and he goes through

these stages.  He really does not see the monster that he is.  As far as he is concerned, he is not

responsible for any of the horrible things that he does and they are just things that happened

to him.

I really want to give you more but...

Book comes out in just a few short months!  I hope you enjoy it, or hate it with a passion 

because you can't put it down and/or it's disturbing.